Sunday, November 22, 2009

My 90 day challenge

Recently, I decided that I needed to change up my daily quiet times and do a personal Bible study. (Read: I need some discipline in this area :)) I love studying scripture and found myself wanting to be challenged. So, I went on a search for a study that I felt would be beneficial to me. I ended up getting Beth Moore's study "Jesus: 90 Days with the One and Only" .
I couldn't have picked a better study at a better time in my life! Especially with the holidays around the corner. I guess I should confess that holidays have felt and seem less important than they did when I was younger. I truly love this time of the year but some where over the years I have lost the wonderment of it all! I don't want to just go through the motions anymore. (Yep, a song just popped into my head... Matthew West "The Motions"...if you were here while I am writing this you would hear me sing it!:) )
I am day five into my challenge and I can already tell that this is going to be huge for me! Please pray with me that I will be changed and challenged greatly through this time. What can I pray for you about during the holidays?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

My Brother and UCP

Today my brother and my parents had a meeting with the United Cerebral Palsy foundation. Most people don't know this but my brother was born with CP. While my mom was giving birth the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck cutting off oxygen to the brain. This has affected his right side of his body and he has a few mental challenges but if you were to meet my brother you would not know this right away.
For a long time now I have been bugging, pestering, annoying my parents to no end to get my brother some help. I love my brother but honestly he is very lazy. He has a lot of potential but he has chosen the easy way out of things. No matter what my parents or I say to him he would brush it off, ignore it or he would just flat out do the opposite of what we were as a family trying to get him to do. If you haven't figured this out already I apparently took on the role of "second mom" at an early age! Matthew is actually 15 1/2 months older than me but I was walking and talking before him! I used to interpret what he would say to my parents. That earned me the nickname "Matthew's little interpreter". Little did my parents know at the time that my best friends through out my life would be deaf and I would literally be interpreting for them as well! God knew what He was doing even when I didn't fully understand it at an early age.
Anyway, back to my brother and the UCP meeting. My dad finally called and emailed the local chapter (I guess that's what they call it) and got a meeting set up. The meeting went really well! In some ways I wish I had been there but I am not truly his parent...just a little sister wanting the best for my big brother. :)
He is going to be getting a job counselor and a life counselor! This is huge! These people will be able to coach my brother in a way that my parents nor I could ever do. He really won't listen to us. If I walked with Matthew outside and said "Isn't the blue sky beautiful?" His reply would be "Becky, the sky is green" and walk away! Yep, he loves to be contradictory as well!
I believe with other people helping him out and telling him the same things we have told him for years will be more motivation and encouragement for him to succeed!
Sometimes it takes a person on the outside telling Matthew the same things for him to listen.
I believe that is the case for many of us... what do you think?

Monday, November 16, 2009


I kind of lost it today! Do you ever have days like that? For lunch today my parents invited me to go eat with them. We agreed upon a new restaurant and I was excited to try it out. I didn't realize that my lunch break would be pushed to 1:30pm instead of 1pm. So, I was really hungry when it came time for me to go meet them. (My stomach was roaring at this point.) Add that with trying to find a parking spot some where close to where we were eating and I lost it. I ended up venting to my mom about how much I hate the parking where this particular restaurant is located on what I felt was a very unnecessarily long walk to the front door. I honestly can never find a spot each time I visit this complex. (I love Trader Joe's and the only one that is close to my house and work is in this complex...b/c of the parking I rarely go! I know my logic is backward!:) ) To me it was a matter of convenience. I wanted to park with in a really short distance of the door so I didn't have to walk further than I felt I should have to walk. After I got done ranting to my mom and got settled into our table is when I started realizing that my little moment of "losing it" wasn't important in the long run and I really needed to focus on the fact that I am very blessed with more things than I can count! I mean I was having lunch with my parents and they paid! :) Yeah I had my "coming to Jesus" meeting during my lunch and on my drive back to work. I need to realize that even though I might be inconvenienced its okay. I might not like it but there is always a reason for things that I might just not see at that time.
Do you ever have moments of just losing it over silly things... like finding a close parking space to a restaurant?!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Philippians 4:6-7 6) Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7) And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ESV

My prayer life is not one that is the greatest. Although I strive to be one that prays all the time with out ceasing, there are some days that I just fall short. I keep going back to the verses above because when I get serious about my prayer time I realize more and more that the anxious feelings I have over any situation will quickly dissolve and peace floods through me. I can sit and stew about something all day long but that worry will do nothing but give me an ulcer. Daily I have to take my requests for myself and others to the Lord and let Him take care of them. Lets face it, He is so much better at being God than I am!

Monday, November 09, 2009

My Sunday Shoot

On Sunday I had the wonderful privilege of photographing Parker and Flannery. April (Flannery's mom) introduced me to Kristi (Parker's mom) via email a while ago. We had been trying to coordinate a time for me to do a shoot with them for almost four months now! So, Sunday was a beautiful day in Charlotte and we met at a well known park for the shoot. Parker really didn't know what to make of all that was going on but I love her thoughtful expressions. Overall I am pleased with how the shoot went! I really had a great time getting to know Kristi and Parker. I found out that Kristi and her husband Jared are both from Michigan... which my mom is from Michigan! These are only four of hundreds I am working on! More to come! :)

Friday, November 06, 2009

With Arms Wide Open

I bet you have the Creed song "With Arms Wide Open" in your head now! :) It wasn't on purpose that I did that. (side note: A lot of phrases remind me of's weird but I can be in a serious conversation with you and something you say will remind of a song and I will probably start singing it in my head or worst case scenario out loud!) :)
I recently found this photo of me and it has become a great reminder of how I try to live my life daily. There are so many things I try to cling to and not let go of, and things I wish I could control but in order to live a life of freedom I must have my hands and my arms wide open. For me it's a sign of surrender. Everyday I have to remind myself that I can't control all that's going on in my world but I can keep my arms wide open and let God do the work! It seems to work out better for me in the end anyway! I have to daily release my family, friends and work to God.
What are some things you try to hold onto but the Lord is saying let go?

Monday, November 02, 2009

A Dream

Most of you wouldn't know this about me but I dream every night and I generally can recall most of those dreams each day! I don't know if this is a blessing or a curse yet. :) They are pretty vivid!
Last night I had a dream that I woke up from feeling hopeful and yet sad because I wish it had been really happening. I dreamt that I was with a group of people at a friends home. The couple that we were visiting with had a son. He was in the kitchen alone and I walked in. He looked up at me and said "I would like for you to pray with me" and I knelt down, he grabbed my hands and prayed! I woke up really soon after that and wanted to go back to sleep to continue dreaming. :)
Do you remember your dreams?

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Another sickness story!

Oh come on, you all know you love reading about people getting sick on random missions trip to other countries! I tend to be the one that can easily laugh at myself because really, I can do some pretty dumb things and if I don't laugh at those things my life would be utterly miserable.
I just remembered this story a few minutes ago and thought it would be good to share. When I was 12 years old my parents thought it would be a wonderful idea to send me on my first missions trip to the Bahamas! I really wanted to go and they were very much okay with me going. I went with 150 people from my church. We were gone for two weeks so that we could do a vacation bible school and also help build a church. We flew to Nassau and stayed in a gym where the showers had just been built the week before we arrived! We had a wonderful time ministering with the local churches. The second week we took sail boats back to Miami. It was during this part of the trip where things took an ugly turn for me! Apparently no one told me sitting underneath a blue tarp with the sun reflecting off of it would cause me to get the worst sunburn I have ever had. We had been sailing for two days, swimming in the Atlantic, going to small uninhabited islands exploring, snorkeling and generally having a wonderful time. I believe it was the third day we were sailing I decided to spend some time on our boat underneath the wonderful blue tarp. I am not sure if it was that night or the following day but I started getting really sick. (side note: I am going to share some of the gross's apart of the story. :))

I had been throwing up and my face started swelling. Thankfully there was a nurse on the trip and they were able to get me to her boat so that she could figure out what to do with me! I finally stopped throwing up and they put me on the "yacht" boat and I slept on an inflatable mattress on the deck. Apparently some of the leaders and the nurse were debating on whether or not to call for a helicopter to come pick me up because I was very sick. While this debate was going on some roaches decided to start crawling around where I was laying and the nurse and two others were trying to kill them and move me at the same time. I didn't move at all... I just laid there limp. I mean what could I do... jump up, scream and run around because there were bugs crawling by the mattress?! I am sure it would have freaked out the people on the boat if I had had the energy to do that! :)
The pastor of our church was on the trip and the following day he came in to check on me. He didn't say much, just "how are you feeling?". A friend of mine brought me a book thinking that would help pass the time while I was on the other boat. Did I mention that my face swelled up like a balloon? I couldn't see to read! (Yes, I am laughing at that memory!) After three days of recovering on the "yacht" boat I was finally given the okay to go back to the sailboat I had started out on. We finally reached Miami and the swelling in my face had almost disappeared. We then had a 14 hour bus ride to get back to Charlotte. When I got home I had started peeling and I looked like a snake shedding it's skin! I had the worst case of sun poisoning I have ever heard of at that point in my life!
Even though that trip was 20 years ago my pastor to this day still looks at me and asks me "how are you feeling?"! I always laugh and tell him I am feeling just fine!
You know, now that I think about it... it's a wonder my parents ever let me travel with out them again! But they did!


Earlier today I watched Crosspoint Church via their podcast. I have been keeping up with their "Faith, Hope and Love" series. The pastor Pete Wilson last week cast vision for different projects the church is undertaking in the next several years.
Last weeks message was titled "Abraham's Faith". If you go and read Genesis 12-24 you will read some unbelievable stuff. It's no wonder Abraham was mentioned in Hebrews 11... what some people would call the "faith hall of famers" chapter of the Bible. He had great faith and yet at times struggled with wanting to doubt what God had told him would take place.
What I took away from the message today is about trust. Trusting that what God says he will do in my life, HE alone will do it.
I'm not sure at what point I started struggling with trust but I know it's been there for a while. Usually my trust issues are more with others around me rather than with God. But lately I have struggled with trusting God fully with what I have felt called to do. Like working in ministry with young adults (discipleship) and also pursuing my love of photography and with writing.
I have so many passions and desires that I want to see fulfilled but right now baby steps seem to be what I am taking. I keep reminding myself that I need to be faithful and trust in what is going on in the now.
I want to be like Abraham when God called out to him and he replied "Here I am" with utter abandon and child like faith that shows my God can do anything. All things are possible!

Thursday, October 29, 2009


The photographer that took these two photographs asked me tonight about doing another photo shoot! YES! I am so excited.


This week I have been discovering more about God's grace. A gift that He gives more abundantly than I could ever hope for. I am not sure how to write the next few sentences because I want to be sensitive to the situation I have been facing this week. I work for an insurance company... a small agency... but a large insurance company. We deal mostly with home and auto insurance. On Tuesday morning my boss called me and asked me if I had heard any news about an accident killing a mother and daughter that had occurred on Monday afternoon. I told him no but that I had read a headline on our local newspaper's website about the accident. I chose not to read it because I see headlines like that almost weekly whether it be locally or nationally.
He told me to go read the story and find out what he thought was true... the young lady and toddler that were killed were one of our insured. Sure enough all the local stations websites had written about the accident and I as able to confirm that it was one of our insureds. The driver of the vehicle was going at a high rate of speed around a corner and over corrected twice before slamming into a tree. The car was ripped to shreds. The young lady and her daughter were killed instantly. The driver was taken to a local hospital where he is still in critical condition. The driver has had a 10 year history of tickets, violations and was due in court on Monday for charges of larceny.
On our local paper's website they have a comments section and I decided to go through and see what people were saying. I was shocked and blown away at how many people are wanting to take this guy (the driver) and shoot him. Now, I do think that this guy needs to be punished but he didn't willfully intend on killing anyone that day. This much I am choosing to believe in. I realized that there was no grace whatsoever in the comments wanting this guy to suffer even more than he is already is and will if this guy even survives. I am sure he is going to be haunted for the rest of his life and yes, he will probably spend time in jail and he will be sued by the girl's family.
I realized more how much more I need to extend grace to others around me. I'm still processing all that is going on with this situation. Needless to say I am learning a lot more about insurance and grace this week!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Sick in India

Have you ever been sick and not been home while being sick? This has happened to me many times. But being sick in India thousands of miles away from home was probably the worst for me. I actually do sit back and laugh at how the event took place. I was working with the organization Youth With A Mission (YWAM) at the time. I was on staff with the discipleship training school (DTS) and co-lead a group of young people to India. We were staying in a house in Chennai for the first month and then the second month we would head to Dehli and stay there. The night before we were to leave Chennai I got really sick. It didn't hit me until about 2am and for the next two hours I ended up walking and at times crawling from my bed to another room where the bathroom was and not having a good time! I will spare you all the details... if you want to know more specifics just email me and I can fill you in. In my wonderful independent state I chose not to tell any of the girls on my team what was going on for two hours! Yep, no one knew I was sick for that long. I truly didn't realize how sick I was until I could no longer walk from my bed to the bathroom in the other room. I finally chose to tell one of the girls so if they woke up and couldn't find me in my bed they wouldn't freak out. I ended up waking up Amanda who freaked out anyway because I had not woken her up earlier. Yep, I didn't want anyone to see me sick and thought I could handle it myself. I figured it would go away.
OH how I was wrong!
(I asserted my independence at the wrong time.)

The next morning my co-leader Ryan and Amos who was leading the whole DTS (and just happened to be visiting our team) were told what was going on. When they came into the room I was laying down in I looked like a rag doll that had been tossed around for years. I could barely move. I am sure I looked absolutely stunning to them! ;) I think they were both surprised at how sick I was. Remember I said earlier in the post that we had to leave that day for Dehli? Well, most of my stuff wasn't packed and that evening when we did leave I had a 36 hour train ride to look forward to! The girls on my team got my bag packed. Thankfully I learned how to travel with just a hiking pack and a backpack! One of the guys working with our team decided to take pictures of me in the van on the way to the train station and then decided to send out an email with those pictures to our families. I think you can tell where this part is going... my mom got the pictures and knew right away that I was sick! The guy told everyone how I had gotten sick right before we left and of course my mom was VERY worried! I was able to contact her when we got to Dehli to tell her not to worry, that I was fine. Little did I know then that what made me sick was a parasite and that it would affect me the rest of my life!
I still laugh about this story because it is something that would happen to me while traveling. I love traveling but getting sick thousands of miles away from home is not fun!
AH India... that time changed my life forever! :D

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

10th Grade

I probably should go back a few years... the summer before going into seventh grade I went to a camp that forever changed my life. I was about to embark on a new journey in life. Moving on from elementary school to junior high. This summer camp is where I met my best friends. I went knowing at least a few girls from my church but of course I didn't know many of the girls in my cabin. I remember meeting everyone and by the end of the week we had all formed a group that would remain even until today.
Three of the girls I met that summer are Jennifer, Shantel and Lisa. I remember meeting Jennifer before camp and then I met Shantel the first day of camp. From what I do remember I took Jennifer with me and introduced her to Shantel and many of the other girls. (I love connecting people!) I also introduced myself to Lisa that day as well. Little did I know then what God had planned!

We all went to the same youth group and that helped solidify our friendship. Junior high came and went. It was time for high school! There were so many things we were all looking forward to. Trips with our youth group to the mountains, summer camp and a missions trip that I would not be able to go on but Jennifer and Shantel wanted to go on. It was to New York city. They both applied and really felt like they were going to go. I should mention by now Jennifer and Shantel were best friends. We all were best friends. But Jennifer and Shantel clung to each other. Which would prove to be something Jennifer needed as much as Shantel. While going through the application process for the NY missions trip both of them were turned down by our youth pastor. It was with a heavy heart that he told them they would not be able to go. He had prayed about it and felt the Lord tell him that it wasn't there time.

The trip took place in April of 1993. It was during our spring break. I had gone to Illinois for part of the week and came home in time to go to youth group that Wednesday. I was so excited to be able to hang out with my friends that didn't go on the trip. That Wednesday would be the last time I would see Shantel alive. I still cry. The following day my dad received a phone call from a pastor on staff at my church. He knew my dad well and wanted to be the one to let him know that Shantel had passed away earlier that morning. She died of a heart attack in the shower while Jennifer was trying to call her mom and an ambulance.
I heard my dad on the phone and couldn't figure out why he had a look of sadness mixed with shock on his face. He got off the phone and looked at me and told me the news that changed my world forever. I was living in the downstairs part of my parents house at the time and immediately went to the bathroom that is down there. I shut the door and just sat for what seemed like hours. I didn't move, didn't talk and wanted my dad to come in and say "just kidding"! Anything to make the reality of the situation go away. But that didn't happen.

Two days later our group of friends said "good bye" to Shantel. For the longest time I couldn't listen to Michael W Smith's song "Friends". It's still hard but not as hard as it was then.

Lately I have thought more about this story than ever before. I am helping my parents remodel that part of their house and I will be living downstairs again in my old room. So every time I walk into the bathroom down there it brings back those memories. I have seen how God has walked me through one of the hardest times in my life. I cling to His word:
Psalm 119:81, 114
81My soul longs for your salvation;
I hope in your word.
114 You are my hiding place and my shield;
I hope in your word.

Oh how I cherish those words!

The Power of a Story

I love to read! I try to read at least one book or more a month. At times there could be four or five at a time that I am reading. The amount of books I read depends on how busy I am with other things. I read many blogs through out the day. Lately I have read many blogs that share stories of others lives. I have read about affairs, heartache, bad decisions made, lives seemingly destroyed, abortion and yet through all of those I have read about redemption.
God's redeeming love. It's powerful.

There has been healing throughout the stories. Ah healing, maybe that's what is tugging at me through these stories. Maybe that is what I am supposed to do... share some of my stories and let others see God's healing.

I have decided in reading others blogs that I will start to share some of my stories. They may be disjointed, fragmented and at times raw. I have stories I share all the time with others in conversation and wish I would write them down. I have felt the tug for a while to start writing more... so if you are a reader get ready... I have stories to share and I hope that through them others will see God's grace, redeeming love and His unending mercy towards a girl who just wants to serve Him daily!

Sunday, October 25, 2009


This weekend I kept thinking about obedience and discipline. Being obedient is not something I struggle with greatly. I have always been a rules follower! Yes, I am that girl. You know the one who gets made fun of for supposedly not wanting to "live life a little". :) Discipline on the other hand I struggle with daily! I like to think I am a very disciplined person but when it comes down to it, I suck at it.
In 1 Samuel 15:22 there is one line that says "to obey is better than sacrifice". Lately, I have had to learn the art of discipline in my finances. It's not easy. I like spending money. Who doesn't? :) But I realized that my spending habits are not helping me get out of debt any sooner. So, I have made some changes. Disciplining myself to not spend money on things I don't need at the moment. I would rather be obedient to what I know and have felt for a long time the Lord was asking of me than to sacrifice what the future holds if I am not obedient now. This week has been hard. I really want to go and buy some new clothes. Not that I truly need them. I just want them! (I have to be honest about that!)

I have two coupons for two of my favorite stores and I will not be using them. Just because I have them doesn't mean I need to go spend money that should be used to chip away at my debt because I have a coupon! I have put myself on a stricter budget as well. I am determined to get out of debt as quickly as possible.

This is a hard thing for me but I truly want the freedom to be able to give more generously to others. I read on twitter this quote: "Live simply so others can simply live." This quote was on Bianca Juarez's page. She also had a great post on her blog about debt. So if you get the chance go check out her post Ghetto Fabulous.

I am also getting more disciplined in writing on my blog! Look for more post and pictures to come soon and hopefully a blog makeover! :)


I uploaded some more photos to my flickr account this morning! They are pictures I took from Brookgreen Gardens in South Carolina... go take a look: my flickr account

Friday, October 23, 2009


Oh I how I hate criticism! I believe we all do. I had a conversation with my dad earlier this morning about this very thing. He stopped doing certain things because of the criticism he was getting and instead of dealing with it and moving on and continuing to press forward he just stopped doing those things. So, he was defeated by the criticism and is now seeing that it has hindered progress in his life. It has hurt his self esteem.
I told him that sometimes we just have to deal with the criticism in our lives and continue to push forward.
I see it as a challenge. A challenge to improve on whatever it is I am being criticized for! There are times that it hurts so deeply that I become paralyzed. Then the fear creeps in slowly, undetected to those around me. I stand still and watch the world swirl about. After standing for what seems to be an eternity, I finally push through with God's word resounding with in me... "7 For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." 1 Timothy 1:7
"6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philipians 4: 6-7 (ESV)

These verses remind to push forward and continue on in what I know the Lord has called me to do.
No more letting fear or the fear of being criticized stop me from living life to the fullest!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Pumpkin Carving Day!

After work this afternoon me and my friend Anastasia will be carving pumpkins at her house. We are going to bake the seeds from the pumpkins and I am going to make hot apple cider! It's been quite a while since I have done this... okay since I was a kid! I will have pictures of this event later on this weekend.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

People Always Leave... Friendships

The title of the post is a statement (or quote) from the show One Tree Hill. It's a statement that has stuck with me for a while. I have had a year of transition within my friendships. I had to let one friendship go (which was not easy but necessary and proved to be a great decision) and out of that came several new friendships and a closer friendship with my best friend Amy that I cherish deeply.
One of the new friendships I developed is my with my best friend Jamie.
He told me on Monday is he moving! He will be moving back to Nashville. It's a great move for him and I am very excited for this opportunity. He loves the Lord and is going to be able to do ministry full time. Working with guys that have been through similar situations he has been through. (Maybe soon I will be able to share his story here...of course with his permission!) A few weeks ago I had a conversation with him about how I am just getting to the point in my friendships with him, Amy (my other best friend) and a couple of other friends where I feel that I can be more vulnerable and that they will love me despite my faults, decisions, and my sometimes craziness. (Yes, I have times of craziness!) While talking to Jamie about this I told him it was hard to open up b/c "people always leave". I knew he would be moving at some point and I was cheating myself out of a deeper friendship with him because of my fear that when he moved he wouldn't want to be friends anymore. Which of course is not true but insecurity and fear had set in.

I had to go to prayer.

It was the only way I knew how to over come the insecurities and fear. I needed to learn yet again to trust in the Lord with my whole heart.
I have had other friends move before. Close, dear friends that I wish I could go and have a cup of coffee with weekly. And of course, I have been the one to leave as well.

(Oh how I wish I could travel to each place that my close friends live! I would be in Switzerland one week, Oregon, LA and of course Nashville the following weeks!)

It's not an easy thing to watch a friend move but, I am excited for Jamie. This is a great opportunity for him! And yes, for the record I will be sad for a bit. But that's okay right?

Friday, October 16, 2009

It's Friday!

Last night I spent some time writing to the child I sponsor through Compassion. As I was writing to Obsa, a verse came to mind that I am constantly reminded to meditate on. It's Proverbs 3:5,6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths". I so easily forget the trust part! But each day I am reminded to trust in the Lord. He already is directing my paths!

Oh if you get the opportunity please go check out Brad Ruggles blog! The link posted here is to a video from the Catalyst conference that took place a few weeks ago. It's all about sponsoring a child through Compassion. Go check it out! You will never be the same!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Jesus Needs New PR

This is the title of Matthew Paul Turner's blog. I have thoroughly enjoyed reading his post and lately he has put up some rather hilarious pictures that people have either painted, or drawn of Jesus. Actually the comments are funnier than the pictures. :) You should go check out his blog!
I am always intrigued by people drawing pictures of Jesus. Especially if they look like Jesus has blonde hair and blue eyes. Last week I took my dad to go hear one of my best friends play for an event (Jamie Morgan). This event was in a small town right outside of Charlotte. On our way home I noticed a huge mural on the side of a small church that was just of Jesus' face. I then told my dad about Matthew's posts. You really should check out his blog.:) And then when you are done you should check out Jessica Turner's blog. Jessica is Matthew's wife and she has a lot of great posts as well. Including many that have pictures of their adorable son Elias!
There will be more recommendations to follow this week. I am greatly encouraged by all the people I have found on line through twitter and to be honest it was all thanks to Matthew one day following me. Otherwise I would have never found half the bloggers I truly enjoy reading. So much so I have neglected my own blog for a while!

Pictures from Brookgreen Gardens

Well, I figured I would update my blog this evening! I have been wanting to get up many posts but that just hasn't happened lately.
Here are a few pictures that I took while at Brookgreen Gardens

Friday, September 25, 2009

My vacation

I was able to get away for two days and head to the beach. I spent all day at Brookgreen Gardens. Brookgreen Gardens
Everyone should go check the gardens out. It was beautiful!

Friday, August 21, 2009


I decided to take some time tonight to do some writing in my journal. What started out as a "dream" journal has morphed into an every other week journal detailing the craziness of my life and also the prayers that I tend to pray daily. The lighting on our screened in porch invited me to bring out my camera. I love photography and I love capturing the moments that tell a story. This picture I hope tells the story of what has already started and what is to come with my journal and photography!
Psalm 18:30 is what I decided to journal about tonight. God's ways are perfect and His word is proven true!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Psalm 139

I wish I had time tonight to go through all of my thoughts on Psalm 139. It is a chapter that I continue to return to especially in times of depression or sadness. When things change in my life and I don't like it, I return to these words that show me how much I am worth in the Lord! Nothing can change His love for me!! What a beautiful and wonderful thing to cling to when times are tough. I can let self pity, sadness, depression and many other things cloud what I know to be true. If you are not feeling worthy or feeling so unloved meditate on the words below and relish the truth that God formed you from the beginning and knows everything about you! You are created in His image!

Psalm 139
Search Me, O God, and Know My Heart
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.
1 O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3 You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
5 You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.

7 Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9 If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
12 even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.

13 For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.

19 Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
20 They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain!
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22 I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!

Follow up to post on Modesty

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.”- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

I decided to go to this morning and this was the verse of the day. I think it speaks volumes to the issue of modesty!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


Modesty has been a hot topic of mine for a while. It's no surprise that I don't dress too provocatively and can be called a prude at times. I have learned that it's okay. :) I need to be confident in myself and who God made me and not try to be something that doesn't reflect who I am as a child of God.
I stumbled upon a blog today that I felt was good, interesting and worth going back to see what Anne says. This is her post on modesty:

Check it out!

Also, another great blog:

Friday, July 24, 2009

Great Video

I am all for weddings that are creative and reflect the couple's style and this video great! I don't think I would do it at my wedding but it worked for this couple and their wedding party!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

International Justice Day ~ July 17th

I'm a few days late in posting this video. Take some time to watch it and then pass it on. If you would like to know more about the Mocha Club go to

A powerful video from the Mocha Club...

Monday, July 13, 2009

Deeply flawed and yet unbelievably loved

I continually come to the realization of how deeply flawed I am. I'm a perfectionist at heart and if something doesn't work out the way I would like it to I tend to walk away or over work at getting the situation perfect. Neither way is a good way to handle any situation. I am learning though, with an abundance of grace that is given to me each day I wake up! I am also realizing that some things just don't matter in the grand scheme of life. If something doesn't go the way I want it to go it's going to be okay. Life is not going to come to a crashing halt.
During my quiet time yesterday I meditated on a verse that shows me that no matter how flawed I am, I am loved beyond my comprehension!
Psalm 139:17
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Faith = Action

I read recently on a twitter feed that hope is great but faith requires action. I can hope that things in my life change and things go well but if I don't step out in faith and put action to the things I hope for in my life then all I am doing is just sitting. I don't like doing that. Anyone that knows me well, knows that I do not like to just sit and do nothing.
Recently though I have been doing a lot of "sitting" on what I hope for with my life. I decided that I can't just dream about what I want to do and then hope it comes true. I need to put some action behind that hope. I think in some parts of my life I had let depression set in. It's something I deal with on occasion and I have to continually look to scripture and realize that my life is not about me. It's about getting out of myself and looking towards others around me. It's time for me to stop being selfish and realize that the world is filled with people who need some one to come along side them and encourage them to continue in their daily walks with the Lord.
I love encouragement. I love giving encouragement and receiving it. I believe it's one of the greatest things we can do to help others out.
Just some thoughts of mine as I continue to realize I need to be writing more and working more on what I truly love... photography. I also need to stay connected to others as well.
Hopefully my blog will be updated more on things I am doing and where God is leading me through each day.
Today I added the Compassion International gidget on my blog. I sponsor a child and I think others should as well. Soon I will be sharing about other opportunities that I feel I am to start being apart of!

Have a wonderful and blessed day!!!

Monday, June 29, 2009


Below are the lyrics to a song I immediately fell in love with. The first time I heard the song I knew that the Lord was speaking to my heart using the lyrics to create a renewed hope in my heart. This year for me so far has had a lot of ups and downs. But I continue to hope in the Lord and trust His hand is always guiding my life even when I don't see clearly what is ahead.
When I have felt like giving up, hope is always there to remind me I can move ahead and push through the trails that lay before me.

Hope Now by Addison Road
If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of
When I call out Your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I'm Yours

I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free

When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I'll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm

And everything rides on hope now
And everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free

You've become my hearts desire
I will sing Your praises higher
Cause Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
This love sets me free

This love sets me free
Your love sets me free
This love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Some pictures of the gnome

Here's the gnome waiting for the flight and then making sure he read the safety instructions before take-off...

The flight and our first night in Vegas

We safely made it to Vegas last night. Although the flight for me (Becky) was a bit bumpier than I would like! I am not a fan of turbulence. (I take deep breathes and pray during the turbulence!) We also had interesting people on our flight. There was a group of women that I decided to name "The Real Housewives of Gaston County".
Last night my sister Julia took us to the strip and that was definitely an interesting experience. I did win four dollars on a machine named "Big Birtha"! After our adventure on the strip we finally made it back to the hotel. We were all exhausted by the time we got back due to the time difference and it being 3:30 am for me, my mom and Pam.

At 3:30 am Vegas time the phone rang in our hotel room. Julia answered the phone and wasn't exactly thrilled with the person who had called. The person on the other end wanted one of the four of us to come down to the lobby to "claim" our prize we had just won. We didn't win anything.... the phone call was from Dan, Pam's boyfriend!!!!! Apparently he called four times! I only heard the phone ring twice.

Now we are headed to Red Rock Canyon so that I can take pictures!!!

I will update with pictures later on tonight....

Friday, March 27, 2009

The trip begins...

Here is our little traveling gnome. Tonight I fly to Vegas with my mom, and my friend Pam. We have decided to make this trip as fun as possible and are going to take pictures of our little gnome friend everywhere. We will be driving back to Charlotte with my sister. Julia officially decided to move home! :)
I will be updating the blog with pictures and stories for you all to read.

Here the gnome is in my office waiting patiently for me to get off in a few hours.